That Billie Eilish has had very bad times and depression is no secret.
Whether with her songs or with any message she sends on social media, the American singer, who is barely 18 years old, seeks to be open and honest with her fans and make her mental health problems visible so that anyone who goes through the same thing feels like they don't. he is alone.
Although it is true that the artist has implied on many occasions with her lyrics that during her worst times she has come to think about suicide, she has very rarely decided to talk about it openly during a television interview until now.
Last night, on the Gayle King show, on the American network CBS, Eilish wanted to open up about what was one of the worst times of her life, which took place just two years ago, when she was 16 years old and beginning to be famous.
According to what the anti-diva has said, during the period in which she began to gain worldwide popularity with songs like Bad Guy, which, in addition to awards, brought her a phase of “pressure and isolation,” the singer got into a spiral. so dark that she thought she would never return to normal: “I never thought I would be happy again, ever.”
“I don't want to be too shady, but I really didn't think I would live to be 17,” said the artist, who responded affirmatively to King's question about whether she had ever considered taking her own life: “I was very unhappy and extremely sad".
Beyond these reflections on her depression, Eilish wanted to remember a specific episode in a hotel in Berlin, during a tour, in which things became more difficult than usual and she got scared when she saw no way out.
“I remember looking out a window. And God. I remember crying because she was thinking about how...what way she was going to do it. "I was going to take my life," the singer admitted, after which she implied that thanks to her mother she did not take the step and it was therapy that helped her get out of that tunnel.
Now, although Billie Eilish continues to embrace part of the darkness she finds in herself for the lyrics of her songs, which talk about personal problems, she is much better on an emotional level and has set out to convey an infinitely more positive message to her followers.
According to the artist, whenever a fan of hers opens up to her about her depression or suicidal thoughts, she grabs him by her shoulders and tells him “please, take care of yourself and be good and kind to yourself.” Don't take that extra step and hurt yourself more, because then there is no turning back.” Although in many cases it is not as simple as hearing the other person's words and the feeling of sadness disappears, it is always a start.
